Dear Sento
I used to have serious problems in life... I have my own problems today... everyone does in some kind of way....
Now... the problems I used to have are a DROP IN THE OCEAN compared to what I have today!
My life has become soooooooooo much easier... I hung on like shit rubbed into every inch of a carpet
I used to think that people were "out to get me" and sometimes I would see things that were not there... I had both positive and negative symptoms of schizo... nothing to sneeze at... super super scary ....I used to literally not be able to recognise myself in the mirror... freaked out at absolutely NOTHING... and remember it is nothing!
Today.... my life has seriously TURNED for the better!
Long time ago ... I put a gun against my head... I was oh so close to pulling that trigger and ending it all out of hatred and what not... I almost jumped off a bridge because I just could not take it all and hated humanity... I have attempted suicide more times than I can count... I have been to hell or my own version of it... but you know what?
I CAME.
I SAW.
I CONQUERED.
AND I ****ING CONQUERED IT AND LOOKED THAT BASTARD DEAD IN THE EYE AND IT BECAME MY BITCH.
I had serious serious problems in life... I was hated at school despised by my "friends" and was told I would "never be like other people" and was just a "failure" and would "
never be like other people".... and you know what buddy?
WELL I AM DAMN GLAD I NOT LIKE OTHER PEOPLE - THANK YOU VERY MUCH - **** OTHER PEOPLE THAT ARE NARROW MINDED AND CANNOT SEE JACK OR AS MUCH AS I SEE
I AM SPECIAL AND I BLOODY KNOW IT.
Do not look too much... do not see too much... do not think too much... do not feel too much... unless it is the positive kind!
you are champion... you are a master... you are a king... you are 1 of a kind and I really mean it... you are gifted ...
not the other way round... I used to think I was "cursed" as well... I used to think it was
"unfair"... what a shame it would have been to have taken my own life.... can you imagine not speaking to me now?
I cannot even begin to imagine how much of a GREAT decision it was to stay!
To stay in this world and LIVE.
What a shame that would have been if I had taken my life.... now THAT would have been a shame!
A real shame indeed because people like you and me are super rare!
You are not cursed... you are
GIFTED
You have these gifts for a
reason
Of course people choose to ignore the truth! because this is what
COWARDS DO
The torch bearers... the bringers of light... the rule breakers.... the pioneers... the people that when we are told to "get back into line" we are clever (and right) and say "what line??? .... I don't see any line!"
LOSERS and weak people that are too afraid will run from the truth and will not even bother to try and understand where you are coming from or what you are trying to say!
These people are a nonevent and not worth your time.... please hear what I say carefully .... they are a nonevent!
People that won't even try to understand you or hear what you are saying no matter how small - are a non event in your life. People that are not positive and constructive are not worth it.
Think about it.
I wonder if people... people like you and me... the "tortured souls" ... the tormented... the very knowledgeable ... the "see right through you" .... the mold breakers ... I wonder if deep deep deep down inside... I wonder... if people like you and me.... people like us - if we are not tortured at all... but just super super super super gifted.... that others cannot (refuse? or just dont want to? .... there is a huuuuuuge difference between
can't and
don't.....)
I wonder... if we just see... if we see far too much and struggle to comprehend how stupid man kind is all around us... how pathetic the man that screams and yells down the road at how some body forgot to turn the light off or something so meaningless and insignificant ... the person that forgets to say thank you for the eyes in his or her head and the air that he / she can still breathe... the feet on his / her legs...
A good happy positive and constructive piece of advice would be to remind yourself that everyone is actually misguided in an interesting way... that everyone on this planet is actually a little bit mislead...
The world is not your responsibility and just remember that do not let what stupid people say get to you!
I used to be very sensitive to what other people say... there are many ways to skin a cat my friend!
And I will say this ... a saying I made up all by myself to help me out at those difficult times
....
"Curiosity didn't always kill the cat! ... in fact curiosity tried to cure the cat of cancer... invent the wheel... and break the sound barrier!"
Take care my friend...
If you ever feel lonely ... if you ever feel like no one understands you... let it be known that you are so so so not alone in the suffering and pain that this world ... many people have and will continue to suffer... some people have suffered so much more then you and I could ever dream of...
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vincent_van_Gogh
An interesting thought for you if you ever feel like going there... or wonder if you are alone... because I want to make it extremely clear that you are not alone... ask yourself this very important philosophy of life...
"It is not the speed I am moving at... it is the
DIRECTION I am moving in!"
Regards
Stinky