...Inky black pools of pain drip off a precipice that was once my permanency . Streams of white hot fire creeping up a mountain that is my mentality. etching pure devastation in their wake. Lost and lonely thoughts of a bleak future tumble downhill crumbling apart with every pebble struck, galvanizing the tears of an intolerable dark abyss, that is my diluted happiness of times long past. Faded shapes cross my eyes forever haunting my dreams, as insatiable beasts feeding on my very own soul.
Thoughts flutter in and out of consciousness like water slipping silently from a hole in a glass. I ask to the darkness “when will it end?” To my dismay the reply I was not ready to hear.. Tainted abstracts crammed into the very fabric of my mind, none to take shape, but foreboding their intents. “Eternity awaits you” is the only notion I got. Aghast I gaze upon the world beneath me, and feel… Apathetic.
As I sit on the precipice of the earth, I find my mind wandering the vast open expanse's of the void.. The very spaces in-between my own thoughts. Chills creep down what once was my spine.. and for once I feel truly free, free of the pain that has harassed my life for all too many years, for here .. in here .. the only thing that hurts is my own inevitable failures. Harkening me back to the viscus cycle were all doomed to repeat, hoping beyond hope that the scene will play out anew, but cursed with the knowledge that this is not but a dream.... Time to wake up and feel pain again. Good night sweet Indifference. You will be missed.
