Stress

One thing I have unfortunately developed over the years is my sometimes terrible behaviour.

Just to name a few:

1) I am swearing like a trooper
2) I snap over sometimes over small things and not even that big a deal of set backs but I still can't handle set backs sometimes almost feel like Steve Balmer throwing a chair.
3) I am hardly ever in a good mood these days.
4) I feel like I am horribly stressed out from such long hours and weekends

The other day at work we had some terrible set backs. The one shipment of high pressure vessels was supposed to arrive but it was late by one entire week. That is a long freaking time in the energy industry.

And I was yelling at people it was not cool.

I don't like the direction I am going in.

My father getting ill has made me even worse and even less cooperative and less responsive.

Also I am swearing at a ridiculous level that seems almost inhuman.

There is sometimes so much pressure on me it is insane. If I don't get things back up and running on time the investors lose millions upon millions of dollars forget about Rands.

I have now got the nick name "Terminator" like Arnie from what I have heard from others around the plant.

I don't like the direction I am going in life.

I just want t retire now and go and have a peaceful stress free life

So much pressure makes me feel like I am turning into some kind of animal.

I just want to retire early or else these ridiculous levels of stress will drive me insane