Crash, there's little I can say that has not been said, but I will take exception to one comment you made. You sir are indeed brave, courageous and for one last time you're taking life by the throat and saying "I choose to write my own story, I choose to make my own decisions, I choose to drive this bus and not be taking for a ride". That should not be taken lightly.
I know at this time you choose not to be cavalier about your actions but I will say this to you good friend. I cared for my grandparents in their final days, they'd lived long, productive, fruitful lives, neither was afraid to meet their maker when their time came. Unfortunately grandpa had to live through over a year of not being able to take care of himself. I was his sole care taker and there were months of mornings at the end where each day scoffed at him and his inability to wake up as himself and not the broken shell that remained. He prayed for the release of death, and that .... that was the worst of it. I am proud of you sir, for making one last stand in the world, not letting anyone or anything decide who you are and who you will be and how you'll softly go into the next phase of your existence. Remember, life is energy, energy can not be destroyed it only changes forms. May peace be with you sir.
I leave you with a line from Queensryche.
"There's a cold wind from the South, hoist the sails, and we'll be gone. By morning this will all seem like a dream."
I know at this time you choose not to be cavalier about your actions but I will say this to you good friend. I cared for my grandparents in their final days, they'd lived long, productive, fruitful lives, neither was afraid to meet their maker when their time came. Unfortunately grandpa had to live through over a year of not being able to take care of himself. I was his sole care taker and there were months of mornings at the end where each day scoffed at him and his inability to wake up as himself and not the broken shell that remained. He prayed for the release of death, and that .... that was the worst of it. I am proud of you sir, for making one last stand in the world, not letting anyone or anything decide who you are and who you will be and how you'll softly go into the next phase of your existence. Remember, life is energy, energy can not be destroyed it only changes forms. May peace be with you sir.
I leave you with a line from Queensryche.
"There's a cold wind from the South, hoist the sails, and we'll be gone. By morning this will all seem like a dream."
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Sorry that I never took the time to say hello over the years. I will remind my self to do that from now on.
