Silence isn't golden... it is priceless! In such a difficult world to live in it is difficult to be nice. It is extremely important to find that "me" time when everyone wants or needs you all the time whether you are the go to person at work or the shoulder to cry on for everyone you know... a great privilege indeed but what about those who need a break themselves when the whole world seems to always need you? I used to be a very loving person but I feel my thirst for success has made me a bit "harder" than what I used to be... ugly cold ... arrogant... I don't want to become a jerk like so many others in my field... also I feel like I have been abused for a very long time with no freedom in my younger years as it was denied from me... In fact I used to be a very loving youngster... I was always known for being very caring... but not so young any more... young but not that young... I never used to watch the news so much... (mainly because my somewhat insane father enforced it or hated me if I didn't want to watch it) I actually hate the news and all politicians and current affairs I hate them all because they are all so ugly a reflection of it's ugly people... mirrors... they are everywhere... Now these days I want to find inner peace... I want to go back to the days when I was extremely loving... I need to "disconnect to reconnect"... to find out how to get back to that loving young boy I used to be... it was so much better than what I am now... I had nothing... but I had everything! Do you also sometimes hate God for putting you in a world that has no love and struggle to understand why it is such a prick? To try hard to find that place I once knew and loved and cherished when I was so well known for being that loving youngster that would never close the door... but I feel I need to close the door for a while just to reconnect to gather myself... to breathe slowly and deeply and find that peace with God... How many times have you had to go away from society just to find that inner peace with yourself and make peace with god? it is hard when it should be more caring and give everyone a fair chance but some have had to suffer what seems tremendously just to get that tiny bit of fresh air... I want to find that peace! More importantly - I want to make peace with life and myself! Have you felt like the whole world is trying to destroy you and crush you and you have no idea why? If you are in a similar boat let us try find that precious peace! Oh it is just so priceless! It is beyond material measure - indeed!